Feeling lonely tonight. Nights and weekends are the hardest times. I fight the urge to call him and either go there or ask him here. Its not about sex though that\'s what he would want. I\'m just lonely and feel the need to be held for awhile. Not sure its about wanting him or if anyone would do. I fight this every night. Some nights are more difficult than others. Go tomorrow to get hearing aids. Dog has been sick..had to take her to vet. Guy I\'ve been talking to online and met a few weeks ago is getting on my nerves..he is so very mushy too much so for how little we know each other..not quite sure what his game is...always talking about all he\'d do for me etc...I suspect at least part of it is sex..but I\'ve told him more than oncethat we are not even close to that yet. I don\'t do casual sex or flings. He has also hinted at marriage etc.. and we for sure are not close to that... either he\'s playing me for some reason or he\'s a nut job...my ex might get engaged to someone he\'s only seen a couple of times....but I have waaay more sense than...I had hoped he would back off from all that when I told him to slow down...way down...but he still does it.
I\'m also having some health issues..had a really bad hiatel hernia episode last week. So much pain. Thought it was a heart attack. May be forced to change my eating habits. Bothering me a little tonight...ah well. Think I will go to bed so I don\'t have to fight the desire to call ex. Dog still having problems too. Having to keep close eye on her. Feel like I\'ve had 3 Mondays this week...:-(
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Feeling lonely tonight. Nights and weekends are the hardest times. I fight the urge to call him and either go there or ask him here. Its not about sex though that\'s what he would want. I\'m just lonely and feel the need to be held for awhile. Not sure its about wanting him or if anyone would do. I fight this every night. Some nights are more difficult than others. Go tomorrow to get hearing aids. Dog has been sick..had to take her to vet. Guy I\'ve been talking to online and met a few weeks ago is getting on my nerves..he is so very mushy too much so for how little we know each other..not quite sure what his game is...always talking about all he\'d do for me etc...I suspect at least part of it is sex..but I\'ve told him more than oncethat we are not even close to that yet. I don\'t do casual sex or flings. He has also hinted at marriage etc.. and we for sure are not close to that... either he\'s playing me for some reason or he\'s a nut job...my ex might get engaged to someone he\'s only seen a couple of times....but I have waaay more sense than...I had hoped he would back off from all that when I told him to slow down...way down...but he still does it.
I\'m also having some health issues..had a really bad hiatel hernia episode last week. So much pain. Thought it was a heart attack. May be forced to change my eating habits. Bothering me a little tonight...ah well. Think I will go to bed so I don\'t have to fight the desire to call ex. Dog still having problems too. Having to keep close eye on her. Feel like I\'ve had 3 Mondays this week...:-(