4/16/2013
Feeling really really down today. Tremendously sensitive to what others say and do. Afraid for my future. Just the whole ball of wax and I have no idea why or what triggered it. Also been thinking about ex more which is not a good thing. I finally transferred all my money out of the joint account in to my new account. Will go later and take my name off the joint account. He keeps saying "no hurry". I ordered my new hearings aids yesterday. They whould be here 10-14 days. and that will be a huge thing off my back. But the dr said he thiks my right ear is pretty much gone. Don't know what I will do if I get to where I cant even hear with hearing aids. I guess I'll find out when I get the new aids. University is expecting huge budget cuts again. Don't know what I will do if I get laid off. apartment is a god awful mess. I really need to do some housework, cant get myself motivated. Its really really bad...and now summer is probably here. Hot and humid at 6 in the morning...Going through one of those spells where all i want to do is sleep. Sleep is so addictive for me.It's been hot here and the apt pool is clean and would probably feel great, but have not been able to make myself go.....Wanting to run away and hide in a cave for the duration of....whatever. I dont even know....Whine whine whine
Been such an ick day. Thought I was past all this rollercoaster stuff. One minute I'm bouncing a bopping around..the next it's like someone stuck a pin in my ballon. Except it doesnt pop. The air just slowly leaks out..And I don't know what sets this off. At the grocery store just getting a few things and suddenly i crash.. I just don't know. Luckily, I have therapy tomorrow and that usually helps.
Been such an ick day. Thought I was past all this rollercoaster stuff. One minute I'm bouncing a bopping around..the next it's like someone stuck a pin in my ballon. Except it doesnt pop. The air just slowly leaks out..And I don't know what sets this off. At the grocery store just getting a few things and suddenly i crash.. I just don't know. Luckily, I have therapy tomorrow and that usually helps.
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know what you mean. It\'s depression and when the ex gets on your mind, it makes it worse. so don\'t feel alone. Try to take baby steps for a couple of days. Spoil yourself a little too like watch a favorite show or a bowl of your fav ice cream.take care.
LOL thanks...yeah...I take meds for depression and my therapy session is tomorrow, That should help. It may be because he didn\'t even wish me a happy birthday (why would he even though he expects me to remember his) or maybe it\'s finally shutting down that joint account. Once that is done we have no reason to have any contact...I\'m laughing cause my freezer is full of ice cream. One night i couldnt sleep and got up and ate a pint at 5 a.m....one of the perks of being alone..I guess. I\'d been doing so well, this downswing catches me by surprise. Just when you think you are over it...How many songs are based on that? Been thinking of my mom and dad too, so its probably several things...Thanks!