Laying there just watching the clock. Its funny, the minutes go by and it seems like they are going faster than a minute should go. Its 4am and I've been up since 230am. Just can't sleep. I ran out of one of my meds yesterday and didn't get it refilled. Its a med that helps me sleep. Kinda sucks that I can't seem to get good sleep without a med. I hate relying on that but it really helps me. I'll have to make sure I get it refilled today. On a different note I'm convinced there is something wrong with me. More than just the bipolar. I have such bad memory its not funny and I can't seem to read and retain anything. I get finished reading a paragraph and I couldn't tell you half of what I just read. My mind wonders so bad when I'm trying to read I have to reread everything several times. I didn't used to have such problems with concentration and comprehension. I don't know whats wrong with me but it sucks and is depressing.
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I also have problems concentration and with comprehension. I\'m pretty sure it\'s because of all of the meds I\'m on. Could that be it? I too depend on meds to sleep and hate it. But, you\'re right - it helps. I hope today is a better day.
When that happens to me it\'s a dissociation issue
I could have written this same thing myself. I, too, hate relying on a sleep aid but we do what we have to do to stay as in good of shape as possible. And also, I\'m taking an online course and I knew it would be challenging, but I\'m in my third module and it\'s so, so difficult because I don\'t feel like I\'m acquiring anything....and it\'s a course about foreign language learning and acquisition! My memory fails me when I feel stressed with other parts of my life. I\'m headed into therapy this afternoon to spend an hour discussing it....
I get that way too...can\'t concentrate, have to reread something several times. I just put a pizza in the oven and I had to go back and read the cooking time, for the third time. Don\'t know if its meds or something else. I seem to have trouble focusing on something. But I\'ve experienced this before...and I think it\'s stress. I can\'t focus because I have so much on my mind. I\'d ask pdoc about it. Try reading again when you feel more calm, I bet it works better.
I get that way too Pagan and it makes me fret..... I echo Kat that I think most of it is med related..... I\'m sorry it is distressing you so (((hugs))) xxx