Don't know where to begin. Everyone has shown me so much support and caring I fear I have let you all down. I gave in today and cut. With all my pent up emotions it was the release I was looking for. The blood running free was like letting go of the emotions that keep torturing me. I am sorry my friends, I was not strong enough.
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It\'s ok Pagan. Sometimes we just can\'t do it. We\'re dealing with a very strong and sneaky illness. Don\'t beat yourself up over this. Hell, at least it wasn\'t a suicide attempt. You\'ll be ok in time. Just have to get through this today and for a while longer. Tell Edgar to keep an eye on you!
You are loved and we all want the best for you. Peace.
I don\'t feel let down by you. If thinking ab it that way helps you to not cut, then that\'s fine. But know that I\'m not actually disappointed in you. I echo what Dobie said - she said it very well! supportive ((hugs)) my friend. Keep hanging in there.
Pagan, I don\'t think you let anyone down....we are here to support you, not judge you nor put you down. I hope you grow stronger with each new day. Allow yourself to cry. Allow yourself the grief. Journal if you need to. Know that we care about you.
It is okay (((((hugs))))) This does not make you a weak person and you haven\'t let us down.