Not really sure where to begin. I have so many thoughts in my head its chaotic, very busy. Oh well, it happens. Anyway, for a while now I feel like I complain a lot. Here on DS and in my therapists office. Thing is those are the two places I feel I can really vent whats on my mind and how I'm feeling and I feel like I've been very negative and pessimistic for a while. Maybe its the depression talking. Thats another thing, I know I am still dealing with depression more than I thought. There are always tons of dirty dishes in the sinks, lots of laundry to wash, the floors need to be vacuumed, the dinning room table looks like a tornado hit it, etc. Its all so overwhelming to me. I've been trying real hard not to be so hard on myself so I'm not mad at myself for letting things get so out of control but I am frustrated and a bit disappointed with myself. I used to be so on top of those things. Today I spent the whole day inside, laying on the couch looking at the tv. I haven't really been watching whats on tv because I have so many thoughts zipping through my head. Its all these things and a few others that remind me I still have a way to go. The depression has always gone away in the past but it always comes back. This time its been hanging around for a while and I'm tired of it. I can say in all honesty I'm trying as hard as I can right now. I know it will pass, I just hope its soon.