So fed up of everything. I really wish I could start my whole life again. Everything just goes from bad to worse. I lost my dad June last year and ever since I feel like I'm just existing. I can't accept he's gone. I don't want to. I need him. It's such a shock I don't believe how he could be taken from us at 55 years of age. It's so cruel. Life is cruel. I wish I could believe there was more to come after death. I've tried so many psychic and mediums but nothing works for me. I just wish I was gone! Also more shit going on with my bf he is an SO which is a major problem right now. Things have been fine for 2 years that he has been out of jail. Now recently someone else found out what happened and she is stirring shit up. Messing with our lives. I just really have had it. I keep wishing at night I just won't wake up. I feel like my life is pointless. I have no friends. I don't see the point in my being!
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Iam sorry your going through so much right now and iam really sorry yo lost your dad.
why is this person stirring shit up for you guys?? She has no idea what its like to be a SO or how hard tha can be.
She doesn\'t want my boyfriend around at place I keep my horse so she went to the yard owner who have said he can\'t go back. But everything has been settled for 2 years that I have been there and now I\'m just worried this whole thing is going to follow me no matter where I go. I\'ve never felt so down as I do now. Just feel like everything is too much and I can\'t see how we can get on in life because of what has happened. I do understand people will have fears of so\'s as they can never understand truly what has happened or how it has been for me etc. It\'s not easy at all.
Can you and your boyfriend talk to the owner?? He should be able to tell his side of the story.....it makes me mad that people just judge on that label!
No none of this is easy can you guys look into getting some land for your horse? It might make it a bit easier as fair as the stupid housing rules they put on you!
I tried going to speak to her with my boyfriends mum but the owner made her thoughts loud and clear she hardly even looked at us. Said I am welcome but he cannot come anywhere near. Unfortunately we can\'t afford our own land. My boyfriend doesn\'t work he\'s struggling to get employment. Yeah you are so right people just judge by that label they think everyone is the same but each crime is different and people do deserve a second chance. If he had done more than looked at pictures there is no way I would even be with him. It\'s just so hard. It will haunt us forever.