Was my "best friends" 21st last night. I didn't even see her. I've known her for years, met at high school in 3rd year. So aye, I've known her a pretty long time. She was supposed to be going out with me and a few others last night but I didn't hear from her. Then she said she was having drinks at her house and would text me later, she didn't. Gee, thanks. I've been feeling really shit as it is about everything, and the fact she can't even send me a text message to ask how things are, considering, but no, nothing. Not even an invite to her 21st. I should have known. We haven't been very close for a few years now, but I at least thought I would have seen her on her 21st birthday. I even texted to say I'd bought her a gift and would have to run over with it if she wanted. Didn't hear from her. Not even a thank you, she didn't seem the slightest bit interested at all. So, once again, thank you very much. Now I do know my place.  I always try and try to give her the benefit of the doubt, thinking that she will turn up. She has a habit of not turning up or not texting back when we arranage to do something. What is her problem. She is also friends with Dave and does the exact same thing with him, and a few others of her "closest" friends. Guess we all know our places. I don't know whats with her. How can she dump her best friends, or who she calls best friends. In the past she'd tell me she's always there for me if I need a shoulder to cry on or someone to chat to blah fucking blah. Well, where are you now? She's too busy with all of her guy mates, thats what it is so she forgets about those who once were close and there for her.  This is turning into a big rant. I am just quite pissed off at this and well maybe I am being silly. It's time I moved on. And just forget her. She clearly isn't giving a damn about me. So aye, fuck it.