The funeral's tomorrow. I can't believe how quickly the week has gone by! At first when I found out when it was, it just seemed so long away and now its right around the corner. I still don't really know how I feel about everything. I really don't want to go, but I know I have to and if I didn't well I'd wind up regretting it. It's going to be a very very emotional and very hard and awkward day =/ don't know what I'll do once the funeral is over. I mean what do people do? Friends and family will probably be round at my grans, how is she going to cope. So many questions.  Just don't know how its all going to turn out. I'm scared I get really upset infront of everyone. I don't know how I'm going to make it through with the service and everything. I still can't stop thinking about how awful the cremation sounds. Just seems so final, it seems such an awful, horrible way to go. I can't believe its happening :( Today is mums birthday aswell. Some birthday.