I really don't like some doctors! ¬____¬  Any thoughts of actually going for beareavment councilling or the like, are nil. I went today to the hosp with a friend who has been having family problems for a while now, she is married at 21 and it was an arranged marriage so she hasn't been okay with it from the very beginning. But things have just been at breaking point for her. I pushed away my feelings to go with her today and comfort her best I could. Trying my best not to break down infront of her. But the doctors GRRRRRRR some of the staff are just soo useless!!!! Firstly, we entered the hospital and all the receptionist could do was pick up the phone after acknowledgin us being there, and dialled a number, talking away, happy and cherrily, whilst my friend, there crying her eyes out, clearly fucking upset. Really pissed me off something rotten that!!!!! Then we eventually got seen by a nurse who took some notes, just asked how she felt, barely even looking at either of us, then went away. Finally got a doctor who took more notes who then reffered us to a psychiatrist. Then he took my mate away and they spoke in a more private room. He looked like a right ass. My friend even confirmed that. Apparantly he was hopeless, basically said she had to sort her own problems out, that there was no more they could do for her! Except refer her to a different psychciatrist. Which he did. GRrr I'm just not happy about it at all. And it has put me right off seeking any help whatsoever from the outside world. I think I'll just stick to the friends that I have and work my own way through it hard as it may be. I know not all doctors are going to be like this, but how can I really know for sure... I am a really quiet shy person as it is, and find it hard to open up about things never mind fucking losing someone I cared about so much. How can I ever speak about that to a stranger! Especially when I know what some of them can be like. Well, I am quite glad I went today. To comfort my friend, and now I know that I aint gong nowhere near the docs.