Things aren't really all that good these days. I was really looking forward to the weekend there. Went out to a Burlesque club (Club Noir, it was) in Glasgow. I'd been looking forward to it for ages. And it was a really good night. Until the end. I don't even know how it all happened, but all I could think about was Kenny. It just seemed to come from nowhere. I kind of thought of him being there with me, he would have loved it aswell. I just miss doing stuff with him. I miss his company he was the best friend ever. The best boyfriend anyone could ask for. It's so hard to believe that I'm just never going to see him again!!! Everyone talks about the afterlife, but noone really knows! That's what gets to me. I mean, I could just never ever EVER SEE HIM again!!!!! I know there are people going through far worse things than me, I don't mean for pity blah blah. But I just hate this. I hate the way things are now. I need him in my life. meeh =/