Things aren't really all that good these days. I was really looking forward to the weekend there. Went out to a Burlesque club (Club Noir, it was) in Glasgow. I'd been looking forward to it for ages. And it was a really good night. Until the end. I don't even know how it all happened, but all I could think about was Kenny. It just seemed to come from nowhere. I kind of thought of him being there with me, he would have loved it aswell. I just miss doing stuff with him. I miss his company he was the best friend ever. The best boyfriend anyone could ask for. It's so hard to believe that I'm just never going to see him again!!! Everyone talks about the afterlife, but noone really knows! That's what gets to me. I mean, I could just never ever EVER SEE HIM again!!!!! I know there are people going through far worse things than me, I don't mean for pity blah blah. But I just hate this. I hate the way things are now. I need him in my life. meeh =/
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i totally understand where you\'re coming from. i still think about kevin a LOT. i would give anything just to see him one more time and to say goodbye.
do you keep in touch with his family at all? one person i\'ve found surprisingly comforting and helpful has been his ex girlfriend. they were together long before i knew him and she\'s really an amazing person. she\'s helped me get out a lot of emotions that i just didn\'t feel comfortable sharing with anyone else. i hope you have someone you can share with, it really does help.
peace & love xo em
I have a few close friends =) My friend keeps in touch with his sisters but I\'ve just never been comfortable with talking to them. The last time I seen one of them was my friends 18th last November but even at that I didnt really speak to her, as I just didn\'t feel I could. And its a big no-no as for any of his ex\'s. Especially the most recent one. We\'ve just never got along well at all. It\'s always been her with the grudge against me, she\'s never liked me since she started dating Kenny and because we still wanted to keep in contact with each other. Now I just don\'t want anything to do with her. She\'s said some nasty things to me in the past aswell. I am not usually one to hold onto things for long periods of time, but sometimes some things are best forgotten about, or well some people. So, meh, I shant be contacting her. Thats really good that you are able to do that though! Everyone is different, and its different circumstances aswell, so its how we deal with it is what matters I guess. Thanks for ur help =) x