Wouldn't believe what I had to listen to last night. Was going to a pub called Zico's to see a zepp tribute. Then I crossed over to the Malt because the band were'nt starting for a good wee while. So I went to the Malt to meet a few folk. They wound up talking about trains which led to talking about "clearing up" after suicides. Fuckin couldn't believe what I was hearing. My two best mates were there. Who, must know what happend with Kenny. Yet, they continued to speak about it. Totally in shock, couldn't believe it. Felt so fucking sick. I had been trying to eat a plate of chips, couldn't finish them. Don't even know why I didn't have the guts to fuckin say something, to change the subject! But why the hell, when they know what happened, would they keep talking about it!!!!!!!!!!!!! That brought a complete downer on my night. Because obviously after hearing that I had all sorts of horrific images in my head. Just some of the things they said were really quite brutal and disturbing. Clearing up body parts blah blah. FUck that!!!!!!!! NOT WHAT I EVER WANT TO HEAR! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR so angry for them continuing speaking about that!!! That was my whole night, ruined. Just felt so shit after hearing that and no effin wonder! Last night, in my bed all I kept thinking about was Kenny and how I wished to fuck I was with him. And this morning I almost woke up crying again, just couldn't stop thinking about him. Now writing this down I am more pissed about last night, than anything else right now.