Was up at the grave today by myself. Still can't seem to stay for very long at all when I go by myself, I really want to aswell. It was snowing, looked really pretty, if thats possible in a gravey. I was just glad to be there, to be sort of near him. I went to see my wee wreathe that I placed on xmas eve is still there amongst a few other wreathes and there was a wee sweet flowery snowman been placed =) I felt like crying when I seen it, just looked so nice. Prolly his parents put it there =) Just had to take a pic of it. Wish I could have stayed longer. Just don't know why I can't seem to =/ I cant believe it will soon have been a year since it all happened. 9 months roughly its been, since last April. I can't believe how quickly its passed. Just wish I could completely forget 2007 but thats never going to be possible. Don't even want to know what the new year will bring. I just don't want to ever forget, I know I won't but its the feeling of  moving on also that is hurting. I don't want to be single forever. But if it meant being with Kenny then hell I would do it. I feel so lonely without him. I'm only fuckin 20 years old. He was so young. It should never have happened. Just wish that I could be with him. All I keep thinking about is seeing a psychic and getting my wee tattoo to remind me of him. I just really want to see what this psychic has to say, if anything. It might all be a load of crap but I want to find out for myself. So I guess you could say thats one good thing about this new year. Just wish I could go back to this time last year. I would have tried so hard for us to get back. I would have contacted him instead of forgettin and waiting, thinking he was totally happy with that hoe, when he wasn't. I was so happy the day he called hearing his voice, asking if I still wanted to meet up. I miss you Bo :(