I got a new tattoo.  Strength on my right wrist.  it is to remind me to have strength over my depression but I think I may betoo far gone. I don't feel anything anymore. Things that I use to enjoy or that would make me feel better just don't do anything.  I went apple picking with my kids the other day I had fun but the feeling didn't last. The last few months I've just felt sadness, loneliness, & like I was a failure at everything.  The few times I thought I was getting better something would just set off the depression again. Honestly I had played with the idea of another tattoo & on Saturday I just wanted the physical pain not just emotional pain so I got it. Don't get me wrong I love it & wanted it. I'm just so tired of feeling this way, I don't want to cry anymore.  I don't have any tears left & the crying doesn't work anymore.
 I just don't know