i am full of fear of the future and feeling totally inadequate. feel like a  real coward. once again face-to-face with my societal limitations. even though i know i have so much going for me in many ways. am capable of having a fulfilling intimate relationship, i dont see how i will meet someone, need not be a lover, but even a close friend where we could help each other, or even a therapist.  buti  cant afford one and have checked out all therapy and financial resources in this area.  do not see how i can make it when so emotionally alone.  no friends anywhere nearby that could help. best friend is 1000 miles away. think i should move to a state where i know someone, but moving is expensive and no telling if i wouldnt find myself in a worse situation. at least this house is in my name...but i dont know if i will even be able to make the (low) payments! if tom only had some assets or life insurance but there is nothing..married on paper just in june and not in a common law state..17 yrs togethermay not count with soc. sec.....    plus i think i am so dependant in certain ways. i am very ashamed i am unable to support myself... ashamed that everyone had great expectations, thought i would become a psychotherapist, veterinarian or a doctor, yet i couldnt even get thru jr high due to my problems.