o no how do i began ,   things are so messed up. i have not had a grand mal szs. since oct.of 07 , just off days and  some really mad moods -but i was improving and so much more confident , my husband and i could argue without him treating  me like i was going to flip out,then i woke up some time this morn. i felt  so sick so shaky ,my head was hurting bad, i had not thought about my having  had a sz. i stumbled back to bed and and  then got back up and  crawed on the couch and waited  until i heard my youngest get up to have him go  get me some  migrane med,when my husband got up he told me i had had one earlier, it shouldnt have  depressed me i dont guess  as for the last  3 days i have felt antsy then tired then  i wake up at night sick. i started to wake  hubbie  up  before as i didnt feel  quiet right. but i dont understand after 2 and half years i am going to have  trouble with my epilepsy ---i take my meds and tho things are  stressful please  not this again and  why  does it start back