still wish you had a teary and a sad  guy  on here ,,,i feel it so much !!! yet  the e is stii under  wraps  isnt that amazing ,i am in  awe  and each day i love  the  day ,         i guess i am having some  problems  now  worse than  normal and not sure  how to ddeal with these .i have felt the e slowly trying to creep up as i said at times i have pushed it away  but i can tell by  my being more  moody and  thurs .i was a little  grumpy and told my husband that i was a little  offf "today he said  your telling me ---he already had picked up on it so he went and got me my pills i thought i had took them  -thank goodnes for the  pack  as  i was really wrong on that one .lthen  i had to leave  work  around  8thirty that  eve.as i ate supper  at 7 hoping it would stop but it started  getting  worse ---head ace -it had been  there all day  but now  turning into a migrain ...friday woke up and  migrain  med had  worked ,my ankle had been hurting so we went to look for a ankle  bandage ,i was feeling  good  we were joking  like normal my son has severe  bronical asthma had just  got out of the hosp.and the stress was coming off me  on this one ,we were in the car and i put the  sun  viser  down -2 papers  fell down -my husband went  balistic yelling  loud about  cleaning the  car and i dont  care .......that he  does  this  at home too... wow  i was not  pleased my  feelings  were hurt ,i clammed up and later told him  i was not a child to  be trteated in  such a matter ,he knew i would have picked  the papers up and  placed them  back  but  he  got angry  too fast and no one asked him to touch the house .he  stopped and tried to go in and buy the ankle  bandage i wanted to go home and told him ...so  instead of more  hateful words plus  i know  how to push his buttons and  i didnt want to think and loud music  doesnt  let me think i  cut my  sterio on in  kitcen  full blast  to hard country and  cleaned  then  i sat  on the  couch  a hour  later and took a nap  -i had popped  my pills .he came in  cooked  breakfast and brought it to me  and i refused it and that set him off and  we were into it again with him  taking my  sterio -this is one his brother  gave me special a older one  not  very large  2 detachable  speakers  on the sides you  can  carry  around old timy --i loved it  great  sound 2  casstte players  on it he  picked it up and throwed it across the  kitchen  floor ,,,,i told him he shouldnt have  done that ...he left  came  right back and i left  he  came and told me to go home and we would start the day  over as it never happened !!!!now i know some of this is my  fault i pushed  his buttons but he  took the thing i loved and  knew how to  hurt me and  i am to say  o the day never happened ????? i looked at him and said you  never  even said i am sorry  for  the car  icident  you know i would have picked it up -he said i did  but you didnt here ---no i dont believe this  and if he did  it was his  place to make sure i heard his  apologyy -he screwed up.so today is another  day he is still in bed  as i write this i still have no use for him  he  thinks  it should be over and i i am not normal if i dont let this go as he tells me  get over it  i just  am so tired again .