ok my friend here i go it has been awile  since i wrote ,so much has  happened ,george and i went through a bad time ,i didnt think i would be able to pull our marriage out of ths mess as he wasnt listening to me ,,,,how i needed this so bad ----several things went wrong and i  fell apart and i asked him  for a seperation ,after  awile we were able to talk it out and  we now stop and listen ,both of us --.things are good ,as they should be .now sz .o i guess i can not run from them but it is hard to accept ,sure was hoping that  the new med .was the cure "---proably never is tho are they ---we will always have these szs ,,,wonder why tho god  did this ?    had  another one on the 15th dec.george said it was a little  lighter in my sleep ,tho i still bit my tongue and i was so nausa i think i must  have had a touch of the  flue too  as i had to  call in the next  day also i slept  both days  but was not able to  eat  much the thought of  food  made  me  want to  throw up!wish there was a magic pill i just  get so down  at times ,i know it  could  be worse but god my bones  hurt now ,my  kids are grown please why cant  my husband and i be normal  for a coupal  years .after a sz  my  thoughts are  depressed before they arer whacked ,as i get older  my bones arent going to  do much bettere are they .well its  time to go  friends take care ,sorry  its been so long ,shawna  stay well