ok lets try ,i m soooooooooooooo sad the tears are so close and i need a friend ,i need someone  to care  and just to hold me and i cant get  my husband to understand i need to be held tonight ,i need to lay my head on your shoulder and just cry and i dont  think  noone cares ,i know this is is the e messing up ,darn  it ,i knew today  cause my thoughts  got screwy and i didnt relise it  at  first i  own a trailor which i want to sell before  it should start needing  repair  work ,my son is in  seriorse need of a dental  work that he cant  afford -this trailor was left by a person who loved  us to be used as  needed -it will not bring a lot its a older trailor and my husbands brother lives there  and can  not get a loan  for it -i want  rid of it  before  something  should  happen  to it .the money to be used  to help my son my  husband said "you get something on your mind and wont let  it go -why should we sell the trailor hes working ....o this made me so mad is it my thinking  i feel wow do you love your brother  more than your son ?i would give  my kids  whatever they need .....and we got into it tonight he said its me messing up ?????????i had steak ,baked potatoes ,pasta noodles ,carrots and chili he was playing pool on the internet i said honey when  thats over  come eat  before  you play another .i fixed mine and was watching that the cat  didnt  jump  up therre and  its  good and hot .well he finishes  and i swear i watch  he starts another game !!!!!!!!!!!!!i sat and wait and  then i am  really  mad that i cant  eat my supper -well he  says  i shouldnt  be mad  and its not normal to be that  peeved !!!!!!!!!!i said  think  man i always  have  when i cook but  i was wrong ---i cant  win again ---o i need a friend please cause these  tears are breaking my heart