i will try to write some more of my trip to the hosp .it was med .center .i was glad the keppra didnt work tho the day was a terriable bad  day ,the dr came in that eve and said he would like to  try a drug  called lamictal ,he said it is a graduadul build up on it  so i will be on my other med  for  awhile also ,wow here it is mon  night  and please god i am so scared to get my  hopes up ,i feel clean ,i feel hopefully but what if i get my belief i am me again and i crash i dont know if i will be strong  enough  to pick me  back up ,for 4 nights tho i wake up several times a night i can go back to sleep -my thoughts are not so jumbled in my head -they are not a whirlwind just racing particles ,i can lay back down close my eyes and say thank you god its awesome ,durring the day my mind is not so jumbled tho i know i am still in a tad of trouble as i am having to lay down a few times durring the day for a nap -i can not stay  a wake its  scary i have to lay  down  when it hits -i hope i can make the dr understand this on the appt .on the  16 when i go see him .he still said no to driving and no to work but i guess i could see the drive thing and proably work  since i cant stay  awake ---huh !!!!!but i feel stronger on this med ,i pray it will be what  me and my husband need as he cant keep on -he worries too much its no good and i cant  help him when i am having a problem and he is alone .