ok today os friday oct five i am going to make myself act alive from now on ,i hate bing stuck here at home ,i must find something a little productive ,no lisance ,no friends ,i have no energy that scares me i have always worked and this dr took it away i dont think he was very smart on this ,i think i am actually in trouble if i dont work for i dont know what to do with my brain .i sat here by myself and i dont know what to do -i dont like tv ,my husband says call someone -who ?????i  never have been a big talker .