teary yellow guy please tell me why this has to be i want this e to go away  let me be -i want to not get up at night and  get in the closet and  mess with  what ?and why ?i want to  let my husband  sleep and not worry about me too  -lord  if he should get sick worrying about  me i just want this to end -i cant remember these things i just  know i woke up  feeling that  owful  feeling and  knew i best  get out of bed and thats when  husband  told me  about  what i did in the  night .turning the gate round and  round  at our  door and laughing and i  coulnt go  to  work today as the tears  has been  off and on  all day  which is a  terriable occurance with this sz. activity with me every time it  pops  up like this .plus i wasnt in  no shape to  drive and the odd feelings has stayrd with me  even  now  so i need to  get off here qndd lay  down  again  yellow friend as head is  hurting  bad  ---reaackon its  absence szs again  going on ....