so much  has went on ,do you know that we went out and drank yellow dude !i dont drink and my husband didnt want to go yet he did  as his friends from  his job werre all going to  be at the  gay  bar ,wow there was a day  my husband would have died before  he would have  stood  beside a gay -anyway i pressured hubby into it as i cant sleep and i am so disgusted with life at present ,i promised him i woulnt drink  but one  drink  that  nowhere does it say  e people cant  have a drink and that hes not my dad-etc....i really pushed -you know we had a blast -i we enjoyed the drag queen shows and i knew not to watch the  strobes at full blast ,and after 3 screwdrivers quite stiff -i was not feeling  no pain and hubbie was drinking  bourban  and coke and i got him on the  dance floor -after 31 years  can you  believe it  yellow  guy .he was so scared that i would have a problem in the night and i had prayed  that i  could have fun   for  once -no reapeats yellow  man but  we had fun .we stayed 2 hours and  came home and went to sleep .                                                                                                        now there is a lot of tension  going on this weeek i am getting so angry  not  dealing  well with people  i feel that  everyone is slighting me ,and  my  feelings are hurt  so easy  i dont know what to do ,i have been  working on my own as i dont want  to get in a confrontation with anyone but  i feel so angry at  everyone is this the e or is it me i dont know wherre i begin and  end anymore