yellow guy ,please tell me that this month will vanish forever and ever and i will never have such hard times in my future ,i dont want to explain ,just so much toimoil in my head ,cant even spell anymore ,hate life more than 50 per cent of the time ,i should be happy ,its so darn unfair the way things happen ,trying to figure out what in the blazes can i do what did i use to do that made me smile ,made me forget my hurts in life for a few hours and i cant -----