here it is thurs .morn .i woke up again at 5 ,sick to stomach -thoghts out of control and not sure .when we went to bed last night it was midnight and husbsand got back up and took trsh out as garbage men run early -that fast i had dozed apparently -i was frightened when he came back to bed ,how funny when its over and my heart settles back down in my chest . anyway i got up at 8 and feel farely good ,went ahead and dressed for work ,i am still loosing a lot of time and was feeling lonely and needing to know that there was others like me i guess last night so i went to e chat room last night -been forever since i had been i listened mainly but its what i needed to make me feel better .it was instant talk and just bull crap but i felt connected as i knew thew had this ugly thing too and i was at home ----sighhhhhhhhh