ok you know i feel better ,i still am jerky ,i still am having these little odd spells that i know is from worry ,but darn if having friends that have this thing that i have seem to be making a difference ,i cant believe this i dont feel so alone when this started there was steph ,catlady and others who seemed to be standing beside me and i had someone to talk to ,lean on,maybe i can live with e ,now i know i have a rough time ahead but i will take day by day -today was bad in i didnt care if i got my dept .in order before i left at 11 or not i just didnt care ,its like the register has took the pleasure and all from me .so for tonight i am not going to cry and i am not alone yellow dude