ok wish there was a tears dude on here ,i am falling apart again ,darn it and it isnt even due to e sneaking in on me but since its here i know thats why i am weak and have to push the tears back and i am so tired of this game ,i even feel that hubbie was playing a mind game this morn .i have got so more in control this few weeks, i have even spoke up for my self in a normal confident way ,this morn .when son called i reversed it on husband who started talking to me sam,e time as son was talking and i told husband to wait a moment that i was on the phone and that he didnt like it when i bothered him when he was talking ,(husband gets furiouse at me for speaking if he is on phone )he is not use to me speaking up like this -so we get into it but it takes to seconds and he says its the e and he put his hands down like he is going to cry ----this burns me up and i cant win ,,,,,i go in the kitchen to finish the "special dinner" i have been planning and cooking for us and he knows it and he has ruined it -he knows i am major stressing as i was told last night that i have to do register ,that is not my job and i am scared of register ,i have a paper from the dr stating that register will cause undo strss that will cause szs and not to be on register , work denied this paper ----i am going to try again but i know it wont do any good and i cant do register ,already i am crumbling ,i am so good at my job and i cant leave it and i cant function .how i wish they had this for one day then made me go to do what i cant .