I'm frustrated with my own feelings and emotions. I've been super depressed. Been taking prozac and buspirone. I don't know if it working or mami g me worse. I keep having these highs and lows. I cry several times thru out the day. I'm a very very quite person since birth. All I do is think. Constantly. It's all had thoughts. I'm a mom of two great kids that I haven't got more than a day or two a week with for a year now. I broke up with their dad and he won the majority of custody. I just can't get my shut together and get a place. I'm having another baby and I'm overly stressed. Her due date is July 18. I have about 90 days to figure out something. I have way to many mental issues and problems with my own relationship with kids. Trying to streangthen that. Let alone trying to gain the confidence I need to face this. A piece of me really died the day I left their dad cuz I feel I lost my kids too. It's been several months and I'm mourning my old life. I just don't know how to get these thoughts out of my head. I cry a lot. Too much. People at work have learned to ignore it. It's horrible feeling like I am barely existing and barely hanging on. I want relief.