As I am sitting alone restlessly waiting for something to happen. The darkness is much lighter now but still I struggle to find meaning. I look for small signs of hope in all I see. Regretting so much of things I have done or been done to me. Struggling to forgive myself so that I may forgive others. Pushing all others away and the cursing the lonelyness. I know this is my last chance to escape and to be free. I struggle each day and try to be patient. I have faught for so long against myself and things unknown. Starting to fight formyself to escape all the dark. The road may be long and many struggles to endure. I'm ready to keep climbing.
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As I sit here in the dark replying to your journal I feel your struggles and tonight I am searching for a glimpse of hope too! How do we begin to forgive ourselves for the foolish things we\'ve done and allowed others to do? The journey ahead will be a hard slog but you have the will and power within you to heal. You are doing so well!
I have so much pain and regrets. I am sorry you struggle as I do, I am losing the battle.
Trying to hold on, but sinking fast.
My world is corored by the pain, the suffacating pain. I am in need of help, but so tired of doc\'s and med\'s.
Loosing hope, and feel cold.