Wednesday

I haven't been here in a long while.  Vacation and crazy work days have kept me fairly sane and occupied.  It's back to the real world now.  J is on his way to see an orthopedic dr.  I hope that he tells us something promising.  I have learned not to hope though.  Hope is a set up for disappointment.  Since J is coming off the steroid again, the pain is coming back.  Along with it the rash and digestive trouble, though not severe.  J will come back to see me after his appt.
I am so tired and sleepy.  If J does not sleep well, I do not sleep well.  I will try to take a nap at lunch since I do not have to go to the bank. 

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wannabesmiley
wannabesmiley

Having a \"What If\" moment. What if J has cancer? I think oh God, not another cancer. What did we do to deserve this? Counterpoint- what if he doesn\'t? Be calm, don\'t worry until you know more. Worry is useless. I really want him to have a CT scan. Call your peer people this evening. Talk to someone. Get it out. I need someone to tell me that no matter what happens with J, I can be okay. Be kind to yourself.