Sunday

This morning I got up and went for a run.  I keep reading that exercise works as well as meds.  So, I have set a goal to alternate days of running an walking every day this week.  I hope it works.  
My talk with L yesterday was good.  I didn't realize that she is feeling so much of the same things that I am feeling.  I know she has had terrible trauma in her past.  But I didn't know this was an ongoing issue for her.  She gave me some names and contact info for some folks that might be able to help me find a local therapist or support group.  I love DS, but at times yearn to speak to someone in person.  I am grateful for the kind, non judgmental people on DS.  I think J is getting annoyed with my down in the dumps behavior.  But I just don't think he understands.  As I was finishing up my exercise this morning, I kept repeating to myself "I am strong, I am strong, I am strong".  I am hoping that by repeating things like "I am strong", "I am happy", that I can retrain my subconscious mind to accept this as reality.