Change

Another good thing happened yesterday; the night before I did some EFT (emotional freedom therapy) that was really a form of affirmation and when I woke up I repeated the affirmation which includes the phrase "Even though I have this (whatever fear of feeling about myself), I deeply and completely accept myself." In the meantime, realizing taht I am simply "snacking" all the time to comfort myself, I realized it was just another additive habit and I managed to get to the core issues of having enough and being enough and I decided to add another very simple affirmation: "There is enough, I am enough." I think the real unspoken turn of control was that, in fact, "I have had enough of this CRAP" of believing there will never be enough or I'll never be enough, to be happy. It is a simple change of thought and belief. Whatever is going on, it's enough; and however I am, I am enough. I'm doing the best I can, and that's enough. it has to be, because it is reality: I am enough. So yesterday, and today, I have quit "picking on myself" to be someone, or something, I am not: "more than enough" for any and every situation.
What a relief!