Feelings

Somehow, andI don't know how yet, all of my 'stuff' seems to center around an intolerance for feeling painful emotions. That painful emotions need to be avoided like the plague. Like I'm not 'supposed' to have them, and if I do, something is wrong. It's a perception, as though I was programmed or wired to be that way.  These pains can be expressed as somantic, appear or come out as physical pains instead of just imaginary or non-physical pains. I'm almost guessing that I need to develope a tolerance for emotionnal pain that I've never had before. Anyway, what I'm learning is to let my feelings out without questioning whether they are 'right', 'correct', or 'justifiable', or rational (according to others) yet. The idea now is to get as many real feelings out as I have inside, and then evaluate them to find the common thread is them, if there is one. First collect the datum, then process the data for content commonalities and differentiations. (Yeah, right; I'll get right on that one! That'll be a whole new way of relating to myself, and that's scary!) Happy New Year!