Hey

I'm learning to feel my feelings and to ask questions of myself. The main one, and the one that I've been REALLY successful at avoiding is what feelings am I avoiding about work? Something is terrifying me, some feeling(s). It seems I will do almost anything to avoid focusing on those feelings. My life's goals, what makes me feel good? Where do I want to go? What do I want to do? These questions have a very high emotional content, and I'm avoiding them; and the feelings attached to them. I know I'm unhappy, what I don't know is what is causing me to feel unhappy. I am not able to pinpoint the feeling yet, exactly. What I do know is that I have a behavior that has thousands of ways to take my mind off of the pain I am avoiding. I'm beginning to catch on to that, and I'm getting stronger each time I refocus from my distracting thoughts, behaviors, and feelings.  The question is: "What am I afraid of?"  Life! What a concept!