I don't know if I can trust tdoc. I am so sad tonight. I feel like I am being crushed inside. I can't call him because he might say I need to be in the hospital. That would be the worst place for me to be. I can't miss work. How would I explain missing work? How do I get a doctor's note? What can they do to help me, anyway. I am taking my meds and I have prn meds. I just picked up the refill. I could take all 58 Xanax but I don't want to do that. I'm not suicidal in as much as I am hurting. I want to tell him I am hurting badly but I can't trust him.