sad
I keep seeing all of these couples that are happy and children running around with laughter and joy and inside I fall apart all over again. I just wonder what am I suppose to go though life miserable? Why did I survive all of the difficult things like brain surgery, cancer surgery, depression, and in the end being alone. I put on a brave front around my roommates and people that come by to see me. I do not want people to say poor girl is left all alone, or the so famous I am sorry you are by yourself or even my favorite one turning away and not speaking to you again. I am just sad right now.
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It always hits me when I go to town. I have to drive and walk around by myself if I want to get anything done. Then I see all the couples or families going about their business and I realize how alone I am. Just read that more and more people are living alone now than ever before. I don\'t know why anyone would choose this, except that there are worse situations than living alone (such as a bad or abusive relationship). I remember how happy we were. Guess I am just fighting it and living in those happy memories in the past and have not yet moved on. Easy for anyone to say, but one big problem - there isn\'t anything to move on to.
I am sorry for your sadness. How can we not be sad when our entire being has been changed so dramatically? Know he looks down and loves you still. Sharon
It just really hurts mostly at night when I am in the bedroom. As far as couples and families go it hurts when I have to go out. Or if someone does not know my husband passed then I have to tell them and the pain comes back like it just happened when he died in April.