pain
I hurt so much today. I don't know what write about. I'm just trying not to think and just wait. wish I could watch tv but I don't want to make her mad. I write her a note saying thank you and I drew my faverit bird on it. I didn't have crayons to color it in so it didn't look that good. I left it on the table for her. I found it crumpled in the trash. I want to see John but I don't think he wants to see me. I wish I new what I did wrong. don't feel ok today, everything hurts and I don't want to sleep because I keep having bad dreams. I hurt so much.
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What is your favorite bird? I\'m sorry you hurt so much ccool.
spangled cotinga. he only lives in the amazon. if I had colors to color it in it would of looked more better.
I know it might seem weird, but if you want to send me an address where I can send things to - like maybe your counselor or social worker or whatever address you think might work - I have a lot of markers and colored pencils that my kids aren\'t using anymore and I would love to send them to you. Because I know that you would like to add color to the birds you draw. :)
But I totally understand if you don\'t want to share an address. I just wanted to offer, because they are just all sitting in a box on a shelf not doing anything, so I\'d love for them to go to someone who needs or would benefit from having them. :)
I think there is a way to send private message on DS? So that you don\'t have to post the address out here in public? I\'m still figuring DS out myself...
If you do not want them, I think I will donate them to my kids old elementary school. But you get first dibs! :) Just let me know.
And the reason I said, it might seem weird\", is just because we don\'t know each other. I\'m just some random stranger person on a website. But I have been reading your journals and \"listening\" to you and it really breaks my heart what you\'re going through. I wish there was something I could do. I hope you know that you do matter and your story has made a mark on many people\'s lives. It continues to leave marks.
Anyway - so even though we don\'t know each other \"in real life\", if you would like some markers, crayons, colored pencils, I would love to send you the ones I have that are just sitting here waiting for somebody to use them.