tired
I'm so tired all the time and I think i sleep to much and I don't like being alone. I watched lot iCarly today. I have a fever and the area around the pump is red and hurts but I don't want to go back to the hospital. I haven't talked to John. I mean he asks if I need anything when he's home but if I ask him if we can talk he says later but later doesn't come. no letters from dad and I think I'm giving up writing him. maybe Johns right and he don't care. I maybe found someone who said they will try to be like a mom so maybe I might have 1 of my wish list done. I don't know, it's kind of scary, everything is but I try not to think to much but hard not to when I just lay here all day. I wish I could go outside. I wish I could go to school.i wish this wasn't hspening. I'm scared of what's going to happen. it's going to hurt. I don't feel good.
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Why don\'t you go to school? I\' ms bit confused. I thought you were only 12 years old. It sounds like you ar alone too much. Do you have any friends?
I\'m 69 years old. I guess I\'d be more like a grandmother than a mom. In fact, my oldest grandchild is 11 years old. He is my son\'s child. I also have a daughter. She has a 5 year old son and a 19 month old daughter. Neither of them live close to me -- about an hour away. I don\'t drive on expressways, so I only get to visit them when my husband drives.
Don\'t you have any close female relatives -- like an aunt or a grandmother? I don\'t know much about foster parents. Years ago I had a neighbor who became a foster mother to a boy who lost his parents in an auto accident. She had two daughters who were older, and they all became close to the boy. I think he was about 10 or 11. They moved to another state to be closer to his biological relatives and we lost touch.
I live in Pennsylvania -- about 50 miles from Philadelphia.
I\'ve been doing home hospital schooling because I\'ve been to sick to go to school. I haven\'t been to school in almost a year. I\'m sick. I moved in with my brother in feb and don\'t have any friends here. only family I have that I know is my brothers and dad. a foster home wont hapen, my social worker already said it would be hard to find a family
I just read your journal. I am so sorry you are so sick, Castor. I really wish I could help you. I am a retired RN. It seems unfair that you have to go through all this pain and suffering alone.
Where do you live? If you would rather not say, that\'s OK. I hope you are recovering from your surgery, and that your doctors find a cure for this dreadful disease. I also hope your pain medication is helping.