hurting

in so much pain this morning. I hurt so bad. 
 
I'm back and pet done. even after pain medicine I'm still hurting. doctors going to order something stronger patch. I want to write more but this pain hurts to much so maybe later. 
pain in much more mansgeble. thats the word they like to use and I'm not happy that my brother had to leave work to pick it up for me but he wasnt mad at all so I guess its ok. or number, whats your pain number. or the happy to very unhappy smiley pain chart. my brother keeps having the lady next door come over and check on me. I know he pays her to because I heard her once tell him she needs to be paid sooner. she smells bad because she drinks and smokes and I don't think she showers. John calls at every break and at lunch he takes the bus home to check on me but I think he shouldn't and I tell him he shouldn't because it takes like 20 minutes each way on the bus and costs him money. he took me to the hospital this morning but he couldn't stay because he had to be at work by 9 and so at his lunch break he came back and took me home. I know he was late going back to work and I hope he doesn't get in trouble. he always brings me soup at lunch but its really gross so I dump it but I tell him I ate it so he doesn't worry so much. I wrote dad again today, I wish he would write me back. I'm kind of all over the place with thinking. I'll try again later.