So here it is just a day after feeling so awful!   What's with all these moods swings anyhow???    I have never been so frustrated about trying to live day to day.    Notthing seems the same anymore, it's like the whole world changed???   I felt so great today.  I managed to keep my darkest thoughts at bay,  I could feel them sneaking up inside my brain somewhere but then just as fast they were gone..thrown to the back of the line...very very strange!!!  So here I had the buissiest weekend out of the whole year and I just breezed right through it.  I had a teacher training seminar to do on saturday and I wasn't even stressed out, you would never know that just hours earlier I wanted notthing to do with this world!!   The whole seminar was fantastic!!  I actually did a great job teaching and we had a wonderful lunch and fabulous fellowship...ha..how crazy is that feeling so good about myself and life!!!   Just the night before I would only communicate with a certain couple of people cause the world was driving me insane...and here hours later I go off to totally feel the opposite???  Ha!!  Today our sunday school dept had an open house where all the parents came to see the child's classroom and work and stuff.   I was at this same building on friday night hopelessley working on the bulletin board we were going to use on sunday.  I had no interest, no desire and certainly no energy to even want to do this project, but I had to pretend my way through the night and got it done....then whammm...here it is sunday and open house and no big deal at all.  It was a big success...duh....what a crazy world I live in!!!  I figure that every day changes,  notthing ever stays the same...ever!   One day I want off of this crazy out of control ride and the next day I am at the top of the mountain!!   How I get to the bottom of the mountain and back up to the top is a complete mystery to me????    I can't deal with any of these wild moods and feelings so  I just need to enjoy the ones that are positive and hide out from the ones that are negative...I don't know.  I wish there was a book to read about how to live with bipolar and succeed but there isn't, so I will have to shovel my way through this crazy life of mine and hope for the best each day!!    xoxoxoxo