Oh come  on..how much of this depression is one expected to endure anyway!!!    I felt great during the day and then this evening while we were half way through church I could feel this chemical effect taking place inside my brain, I'm serious, it felt like my brain was going off track or something...maybe I'm explaining it wrong?   Anyway after that I was toast...gggrrrr!  Because I have been having good periods during my days the down periods didn't annoy me at all, but tonight I am ticked offf Big time!!   aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!      Why can't I just stay feeling good all day????   I suppose I should be thankful for the times I do feel good, it just makes me so depressed to think about all the blessings I'm missing out on and all because I choose to...duh?  I need to go to bed.  Love you's all.  oxxooxox