Oh no! I went out tonight and it didn't work! I thought I was doing ok today but I found out otherwise that I wasn't. I met some friends at a coffee shop and stayed for about 5 mins then I just couldn't stay anymore. Too much activity around me and feeling paranoid. I ran out to my van and started driving. I pulled over after a while and called my friend. She was on her way to pick me up in her car. Before she got there I just screamed and yelled frantically! I honestly felt like I was going crazy.....it scared me alot! The rest of the night was very uncomfortable and I was triggered into evry emotion known to man. I really don't feel safe around people, in case I say the wrong words or start crying. I get all these litlle splurts of emotions all day long and I am still playin dominos in my head. I am feeling like I am deeper in the storm tonight then I was yesterday. I am feeling very weird about myself! It feels like I am going to go over the deep end soon or something? The Risperdal should be out of my system by now but I still don't feel back to where I was before I started taking it. I am waiting to see what transpires tommorow. And monday I talk to pdoc. Gotta go for now. Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox
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It\'s going to be alright.Try not to dwell on on the incident.We have a mood disorder, you are simply experiencing the low pole right now. As hard as it is you need to be patient to let the risperdal rid itself from your body.I hope you\'re feeling better tomorrow!
Love ya, sweetie. xx
I find it very difficult to be around people sometimes. I think often we overlook the spiritual aspects of being around other people. If you are sensitive to other peoples \"vibrations\" it can make it very hard. I have all I can take to walk into a store, it makes me very paranoid. I will be praying for you. Love, Mary Ann