Hey it is I again.   Here I am on friday night at my friends house waiting for the church van.   I am feeling totally allienated from my friend.   It seems she doesn't really like me anymore?  She loves me but doesn't like me.   Maybe not but that is what I'm feeling.   The more my new meds are working to make me feel better the more my Bipolar is magnified.  I feel like I am slipping into a BIG hole but can't stop myself.   I wonder what will happen next?  Don't feel like writing anymore.  oxoxoxoxox