Well, I have had a longggg week. I think I have been negative every single day this week. I am trying not to be but I am having a hard time being positive. I am feeling very much in control of uncontrollable situations, people all around me react but I just kinda feel.....oh well, who cares?! This is a very nice feeling from the getting stressed out way I used to get...hope it keeps lasting cause I am beginning to like change and that is a BIG bonus for me! I have been very snappy and opinionated lately though....don't like this at all. I am off to the big city tommorow with 15 other ladies from my church and I am already being negative about the trip, I don't want to go. I don't know if I can handle being out all day in shopping malls and restaurants? I am going to bring some books to read while everyone is shopping I plan on staying in car and reading. I think I am wanting to be by myself...uuummmmm.....wonder what this is all about? Anyway, I am not looking forward to tommorrow and hope I don't fall apart.....if I do I may just run away and never come back. Well, it will soon be a new day so maybe I will wake up positive! Talk later. Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoxoxooxoxox p.s.s. did u notice my face is now green? wow!
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Ramona, it is so difficult to be positive sometimes. I know how hard you try each day and the struggles you have spoke of with your church friends. Sometimes when I feel I want to be alone and just dont want to be with people, I find that once with them I enjoy myself. Try to see that the companionship may be good for you and create a positive attitude. Be patient with yourself and move one step at a time. You are doing so well. You are in my prayers for peace.Luv and hugs, Shelly