I am soo angry right now!!!   Why is it always the people who know you best that make you CRASH!!!    I have repeated this routine with my best friend for days now and I am finally angry!  I am not usually an angry person but right now I feel like I am on a rage of anger!!!     I have the most important night planned and now I am not going. I hung up twice on my friend now....makes me so mad that she actually started inticing me to bring out the anger emotion.   I really am a mess right now.  I have so many feelings going on that I can't control them all, my head is swimming with emotions.  I want to so much pick up the phone and get a ride to where I should already be at but I am too proud and too messed up to do it.  Bipolar SUCKS!!!!!!!!   Sorry my friends, I am just soooo angry and upset and sick and ect...ect...ect.....Well, I did it, I picked up the phone and called my friend to go to this big event tonight, wonder if I'll make it through?   Last time I was at a big crowd of people I had to go into the office and hide till it was over.  Hopefully it won't be like that tonight.  Honestly though, my friend drives me CRAZY and I don't know what to do about her?  She knows everything about this awful disease and is such a support...maybe it is just me?  Well, let you know how things go or don't go.  Thanks for listening ...again.  Love and Prayers Ramona xooxxoxo