Heyyyyyyyy......I feel GOOD today.   Have you noticed I am moving up on the "I'm feeling" chart?!    During the week last week I started feeling weird/strange,  and yesterday afternoon I felt very ummmm......"level?"   Can't think of a word for how I was feeling?   I just didn't feel the same as I usually do and the strange feeling I felt all last week was feeling familiar to me now kinda.   I was telling my Pastor's wife how I was feeling and that I thought my meds were finally kicking in for the best.   Then last night at church during altar call I felt the Lord spoke to me and told me He healed me.   We had such an awesome worship service that we didn't even get to the preaching,  we spent a couple of hours in altar call.   When church was over and I was driving my bus full of people home,  actually,  most of us were going for coffee,  I was singing and being very "positive",  totally opposite to how I have been acting for a longggggg time!    I knew then for sure that God had healed me and my meds were working for the best.  I am very excited!  I do not know how much or even what area the Lord has healed me yet but He has definitely touched my body!  And that awful Lithium I have been faithfully taking for over a month now is working for the best too,  I already felt the "cycling" slow down a few weeks ago and now I am feeling very much in control of everything.  I haven't been feeling in control for almost a year.  The strangness I was feeling last week I think was just a level I was rising to that wasn't familiar to me?   The world does look different to me now but it is an ok different.   I am a bit nervous....okay....I am alot nervous about where I am feeling right now because it is unfamiliar territory but I am aware that once this med starts working for a Bipolar brain,  that it is a total change....sooo Praise God for change!   Instead of finding all the "negatives" that are going with how I am feeling I am desperatly going to try to find all the "positives."   Ohhh....what a chore that feels like already,  I find it so totally amazing how my mind can feel soooo great and sooooo pulled toward feeling blaahhhhhh at the same time.   Oh,  the blessing of having Bipolar!   Well, I just wanted to share with you's all how things have been changing around here.  Way back in the far depths of my brain I am feeling very anxious about this "change" in me.   I even had a thought....just one thankfully....about stopping me meds before I start feeling anymore better.  Ohhhh.....so dumb,  I HATE thinking like that because it makes no sence.  Anyway I need to go.  I am really going to enjoy my new colour of green, I don't remember having felt green before?   Hope I can handle all this "good" and "positive" nature I have acquired over the last few days!   Love and Prayers    Ramona    xoxoxoxoxooxxoxoxooxoxo