Hi everyone . Today is another day in the life of Ramona alias Pulpit. The last couple of days seems out of focus. I feel like I'm looking through a tiny window to the outside world? Notthing seems real! I don't know if it is my meds or just me? A couple of weeks ago my brain stopped spinning and I felt peacfull and calm, so maybe I just need to get used to feeling not high or low but somewhere in the middle? It bugs me though that notthning is looking or feeling like it has any life. Funny thing is I don't feel "dead." I have taken some meds in the past that made me feel very "dead." I had no emotions or anything, I don't feel like that right now I just feel strange and everything looks strange! 
I have only been up for an hour and I am ready to call it a day already, I haven't even gone outside yet, I have a busy day today and can't imagine how I'm going to get through it?! I always do though but I sure don't feel like it. I would just like to go back to bed and stay there till Jesus comes. 
Today eveything is such a chore for me. Everywhere I look feels out of place even things and scenery I'm familiar with......very weird! Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoox
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maybe the strangeness is what seems so weird to you. atleast you don\'t feel dead, thats got to be good and to be in the middle instead of high or low has got to feel good. don\'t lay down and give up. i mean get rest that you need but then get up and get moving. don\'t let depression set in. it will all be ok and know that i am here for you if you need to talk. take care.
Thanks for the good advice.....your right....this depression thing wants to steal my peace and joy! God bless you my friend. Have a great day. Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxxo