Well, Well, Well.....here goes the merry-go-round again!    I was doing well until this afternoon when someone I love very very much said something to me and I took it as o o....they don't love me anymore...our relationship is over now, I was devastated so I had to leave our fellowship at the bowling alley and go sit in the car to stop the tears from flooding over.  During this time I wanted to just go home and jump into bed and not think about anything anymore.  I know the reason I took it the way I did is because of my Bipolar but it still doesn't help the fact that it happened and I feel unloved and rejected.  I just want to stop my life and all the activity in it and just sink into my own pit of dispare!  I hate feeling this way!!! Is making me CRAZY!!!  Tommorow is a busy day for me and I need to get through it.  My meds seem to be working than all of a sudden I will have a "melt down" for no paticular reason...ahhhh!!!!!  I need some "high" in my life again, it has been way to longggggggg  9mnths of feeling lowwwwww...ahhhhh!!!  I check in with my bdoc on monday so we will see where we are going to next.  I need to go to bed so I will say good night to all.  Thanks for listening and take care of yourselves, it looks like I may need you soon.   Love and Prayers   Ramona  xoxoxoxoxooxoxox