Well....It has been a long week.  I am feeling very calm and peacful lately.  Maybe it is the new meds I'm taking?!  My bpdoc took me off my anti-depressent today...aaahhhh!!!!  First time being off this med since I CRASHED back in March.  I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and antsy about this decision but my bpdoc is thinking just the mood stabilizer Lithium will do the job for me...so only one way to find out eh...If this doesn't work I am going to go out onto my 8th floor balcony and scream!  I just can't imagine starting a new med all over again!  I check in with my bpdoc next week to let him know how things are going.  I still feel very very naseated like I need to vomit all the time but mostly dry heaves...which gives me a headache.  My bpdoc changed around my pill times so now I take one in morning with food..yuk! Can't imagine eating in the morning between vomiting and taking one at supper time, instead of taking both at bed time.  He is hoping this will take away the sick feeling by spreading them out over a 24hr period, makes total sence to me except I just don't want to take anything...I am really sick of being a guinie pig...oink oink.  Isn't it funny how we Bipolar minds think...now that my brain isn't on "rapid cycling" anymore for the past couple of weeks I am becoming very tempted to go it on my own.  But the memorys of last spring keep coming back to haunt me and that is why I keep on trucking with all these meds and combos.  Wow.  I just want to go to sleep for ever and not think about my Bipolar for a day.  I am so glad I have you's to relate to cause i am feeling very "yucky"....every bone aches including my head and I don't want to go through the motions of the next couple of days.  My daughter and gradkids are coming to visit for a couple of days and I really need to be feeling better then this, having a hard time functioning at all, if not for God I don't know where I'd be.  Well, I better get to bed before I git insomnia again.  Talk soon. Love and Prayers   Ramona  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo