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Lately I have had zero time to write.  I hate that!  I need to be here... I need to be writing.  It helps me soooo much.  I have so much to write today and I don't have enough time.  I'm going to try and make some time tomorrow because you all will love the stories I have to tell you.  Just amazing stuff.  But tonight I would like to touch on a couple of things... I HAD THE BEST FAMILY VACATION I HAVE EVER EVER HAD!!!! Thank you all for your support.  I am so excited to tell you that it was a wonderful time ... I will go into detail later but all of my fears were totally taken care of praise the LORD! I am in May so that Means I'm doing crazy fing amounts of work right now!  Classes are now abbreviated into 2 weeks or 3 weekends if you will segments with the same amount of work that would be in a 5-8 week course.  I'm scared, overwhelmed, angry .... and to add to this it is Math which is like my worst subject and most feared subject of all.  I actually consider myself MATH retarded!  Anyhow today was horrible I had a full on panic attack in class after my teacher TOTALLY HUMILIATED ME IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! BITCH!I don't know what they are teaching our kids anymore.  This stuff is so wierd.  Anyhow she put this problem on the board 124+19+24+364+63=????  with the instructions that we could not write this down, say it out loud but instead had to figure it out in our heads.  When we are finished we are to raise our hands.  AND SHE WAITED UNTIL EVERYONE WAS FINISHED SO INEVITABLY YOU HAD TO RIASE YOUR HAND.... THEN TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE!!!! SHE RANDOMLY CALLS ON SOMEONE TO TELL HER THE ANSWER... Talk about a worst nightmare scenario.  Well we then went into number sequences and she had something like 19, 8, 20, 179 (these are fictional nubmers but you get the idea)... AND she calls on me... and THANK GOD I had the correct answer!  BUT she continues by asking me HOW I came to that answer.  Well I bumbled some stupid answer like... 19 and 20 can't be a part of a number sequence because they are too close while the other numbers are too far apart... and when she didn't understand what I said for whatever reason ... I said, because it looked wrong to me and I felt that 20 was the wrong number in teh sequence.  Well in front of the whole class she says... we have to have a concrete answer you can't determine a math answer by "feeling".  Oh MG!  I had to get up and go to the bathroom and cry.  I was devastated!  I couldnt' stop crying.  I actually had to go and take an antianxiety med to make it throguh the rest of the day!  IT WAS FREADKING awful.  So that was my day today.  I could go into more detail but HEY it was bad enough the first time around right! :-0